WISHLIST: ITEM #2

Got really busy the past few days. And hopefully, my new endeavor will bear fruit really soon (fingers crossed!).

Now, am back to my wishlist. And since item number 1 was about cooking, well, item number 2 is also about cooking. I will soon receive my new cookbooks. So might as well wish for new cookware, too! Hahaha!

When I was still younger, I loved watching CSI, Apprentice, Amazing Race much more than watching shows on the Lifestyle Network. But a few years back, I got hooked initially with Rachael Ray's 30-minute meals...and then there were the various home makeover shows...then Giada's Everyday Italian, The Iron Chef...and now, I am hooked on the Lifestyle Network! How I envy their labor of love. And the Network fuelled a lot of my wants -- I want to get to do that. I want to cook just like her, etc.



And nowadays, whenever I watch Rachael's show, how I envy the stuff that she gets to cook with! She now has this spoonula thingy, which are in bright, wonderful colors: green, orange, yellow, etc. And I searched her website to get the pictures of the stuff that I wanted.


Daddylove and I also have been wanting to buy a pepper mill. But the ones that we have been seeing are also pretty expensive. So I thought: might as well put it in my list. Who knows, someone generous might stumble upon this and get me one! Haha!

And last, I also want a food processor. I would have used the picture that had a pink one. But I wouldn't want my kitchen to look too feminine. Because as I said a few blogs back, Daddylove is the better cook between us. So, instead of favoring an all-pink kitchen, I am using happy, vibrant colors instead.

You know what, since I started thinking about my list I also thought that well, it ain't bad to make a list and never get any of the items. At least the list will come in handy when thinking of stuff that I would like to buy for myself. :)

Gift-giving Part III

And my vote for my favorite mall goes to... RIVERBANKS MALL! I know I'll get in trouble if I say (again) that one of the best part of residing in Marikina is getting to shop at the Riverbanks Mall. I got a bit in trouble when I said this out loud in front of my husband. Hihihi... Well, the shopper in me was talking. Not me the wife. Anyway, am trying to rationalize.

I love window-shopping here first if I intend to buy something. Because more often than not, the prices here are way cheaper than mall prices (even during a sale). How come? OUTLET STORES abound, my dears! So if you're not looking for the latest in fashion clothing and just wanted to purchase a new pair of pants, polos, sports outfit and gear, dresses, children's outfits, etc. Go to Riverbanks Mall. Check out their styles first. Who knows, you might come out with three paper bags instead of one! The outlet stores here are on sale all-year round. Yep, you read that right. Well, there are seasons wherein discounts are bigger than their usual days. Be it just on 20% discount, nevertheless, a sale price is way better than not getting any discount.

The mall isn't the likes of Megamall or Trinoma, ok? It isn't as fancy as that. But it's air-comditioned and clean. It has SM grocery, tiangge, and other stalls, too. The outlet stores are: Folded and Hung, Guess, Nike, Van Heusen, Mossimo, Converse, New Balance, and lots more. See you there guys!

Gift-giving Part II

The warehouse sale that I mentioned in my previous blog is still on!

And I have two more warehouse sales to talk to you about. Gingersnaps and Just G is holding a warehouse sale until December 29th. Open from 9am to 5pm, Mondays to Saturdays. Closed on holidays. It's in Brgy. Maybunga (I hope I got that right), Pasig City. Beside Pasig General Hospital, RTU and after the Rainforest Park. Mimi and I went to buy gifts for my nieces and nephews. What we did wrong was going there in the afternoon. The place was already a mess! Most of the clothes are already on the floor. It's almost closing time when we got there. So I guess the staff are just waiting for the store to close before they start re-arranging everything. I suggest that if you are interested, go there in the morning. When everything's still in order. Also, we were told that in the morning, they replenish the supplies. Polo shirts for boys cost around 150 and pants around 180. They have clothes for infants, girls, teens and pregnant ladies. I was even thinking of buying some maternity clothes, just in case I get to conceive next year (as planned and with God's blessings). But they say that's thinking too far ahead. Anyway, I heard that this warehouse sale happens every year, around the same date.

Are you a techy person? Or have you been saving up to buy some appliances? LG is also holding a warehouse sale from December 8 to December 13. Incidentally, you'll be passing by the LG warehouse before getting to Gingersnaps. I bet going to Pasig next week will be well worth the trip. Just be ready to bring cash. HAPPY SHOPPING EVERYONE!

And by the way, I will be posting a part III which will feature my favorite mall. Why is it my favorite? Because most of the stores there are on sale all year round! So don't forget to check my blog in the coming days.

Gift-giving: Budget style

With the Christmas season comes gifts, new clothes, shoes, etc. And in staying true to the tradition, it's time to start buying gifts, especially now that most (if not all) have received their 13th month pay. Of course, with the global financial crisis, we can't afford to be extravagant gift-givers. So, how do we buy gifts that are of good quality but wouldn't leave us with countless of sleepless nights thinking, "How the heck am I going to survive for the next month?" Or "How will I pay off my credit card debts?" Not positive thoughts for the start of the year, right?

I know lots of people would troop to Divisoria and Greenhills (well, I also wanted to go there!). But the downside of buying stuff there is that we are not sure of the quality. I have bought some shirts worth pHp 75 to 100 only to find out that after being washed twice, I have used up the value of my shirt. Sad but true! And definitely, I won't be buying the same thing to give as gifts.

Nowadays, it would be best for us to create the gift, rather than buy it. It is cheaper and the effort put into making it gives more value. But how about for those who would rather buy than make? Well, I have found the right places to shop for gifts not just for others but for yourself as well.

Yesterday, Daddylove and I decided to window shop for possible gifts. We headed to the SM Marikina City. But before going there, we passed through a warehouse sale for Mendrez, Trod, Diesel and Unlisted. The cheapest pair of ladies' high-heeled sandals was priced at pHp100. Wow, not bad! Of course these designs were last season but they are not outdated. They also had rubber shoes for guys and gals alike. Unfortunately, I found fewer stocks compared to the ones that I saw last Saturday. For all those who want to go see for yourselves, it's just along Bayan-Bayanan Avenue, before you reach the Fire Station. Hopefully, more pairs are still available.

I have two more warehouse sales in my list aside from my favorite mall. But first, I need to study for an important exam. Tomorrow, I'll continue my list. See you then!

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WISHLIST: ITEM #1

First item on my list: COOKBOOKS --- Or should I say items? As I said in a previous blog, I am just learning to cook. Sadly, I didn't get my dear Mimi's talent in cooking superb meals (BTW, Happy Birthday Mimi! Love you!). I also don't have the 'supernatural' powers to identify what ingredient was in the meal that I am eating. Thus, cookbooks are a lot of help to me! Thank God I stumbled upon two very helpful sites/persons on the internet: PINOYCOOK and MARKETMAN!!! Also, I love watching Lifestyle Network for the different home makeover and cooking shows. I especially love Giada de Laurentiis and Rachael Ray.

When I had to think about my wishlist, cookbooks were the first ones that I thought of. I would love to have cookbooks from three authors: Connie Veneracion, Giada de Laurentiis and Rachael Ray. Two of these cookbooks were already bought for me by my ever-generous sister-in-law!!! Thanks so much Ate Joy!

Come 2009, I would be excitedly sampling the meals on the cookbooks of Giada de Laurentiis and Rachael Ray. I only hope that my number one critic, Daddylove, would find them sumptuous. As an old adage goes "The way to a man's heart is through his stomach."

Another first for me

Had a fulfilling weekend. I made new friends, tried my hand in something new and got anointed for it.

As I have mentioned in my previous blogs, Daddylove and I are members of the Light of Jesus Community. He is now active in the Training Ministry. Last weekend, their group hosted a Worship Workshop at Villa de Calamba. And since it has been a month since I last visited my mom, he decided to take me along with him. At first I thought that I will just be a curious observer at the sidelines. But later on, he said that he signed me up as a participant, too. Huh?! Wasn't he kidding?! Well, he wasn't! Much to my disappointment because I wanted to spend more time with my mom instead. I was hoping that I didn't have to be there with him the entire time so I can just stay in Los Baños.

By 6am Saturday morning, we were on our way to Calamba. Of course I knew that I'll be learning a lot in the workshop since I haven't experienced doing my own worship (yup, I am not as spiritually mature as my husband is. I am just new in community life and he has been an LOJC member for 9 years already.). Thus, the workshop gave me a lot of insights on how to prepare the exhortation, the songs, transitions, etc. And we had to actually make one and share it with our groupmates. Ha! I dread talking in front of a lot of people. Especially when I am talking about something that I am not an expert of. And most of all, worship required singing!!! Hmmm...can't I just dance?!? Well, at least there will only be 3 people in our group. And that's it.

But the big shock came when I was chosen to share my exhortation in front of the group. I wanted to cry! Of course I cannot say no to these people. They have taught me a lot that day. And as what one of the speakers said, being called to do something for Him is a privilege. Kapal naman ng mukha ko kung tatanggi pa ako, di ba?

So, with knees shaking and hands trembling, I shared my exhortation. And with God's grace, I found everybody listening to me, responding to my questions and the smiles on their faces said that they were with me. Wow, at least I forgot about my hands and knees for some time and was able to focus on the message that I had to deliver.

Saturday ended with an assignment for the participants. We were to finish putting songs and transitions into our worship. Thank God Daddylove was there to sing the songs for me. I was able to choose three that fit my theme and the tempo that I wanted to get. And I found solace in the fact that since I already shared my exhortation, I might not be the one chosen to share his/her entire worship for the following day.

Sunday came and we shared our worship to our groupmates again. A few minutes after, I found out that I was chosen again. Huh?! Did Daddylove set me up?! I guess not, he knows how much I fear singing in front of a crowd...what more with leading a group in worship. I haven't done it with just him as my audience. And I am certainly not ready to do it in front of a crowd. I really really wanted to cry then. But my seatmate prayed for me. I heard her praying for me. And thinking about it now, I know that it wasn't Daddylove who set me up that day. It was the Man to whom we were doing the workshop for. He was there the whole time with us. Front and center, nailed to the cross.

So with more trembling and shaking, with not knowing how to muster enough confidence so as to look credible in front of the crowd, I took my spot. And with Jesus nailed on the cross behind me, I did what I was called to do. Sometimes I got out of focus thinking what am I doing here? I feel stupid standing in front not knowing how to sing! I didn't memorize the songs! But again, with God's grace I saw that my message was getting to my audience. With the smiles on their faces, I felt that I can lead them to worship. They were there with me, worshiping God with all our hearts. And by the third song, albeit the last, I was able to muster enough confidence to put the microphone on my lips while I was singing. I've always prayed that I wanted to be a good servant to Him. But I didn't know how to be of service to the community. My fear always took over me. But in those few minutes, He showed me that I can overcome my fear. That with putting more of my heart and mind, I can have a deeper relationship with Him...I can continuously have a prayer time, a Scripture time and now, a worship time with Him.

On our way home, Daddylove told me something that he wanted to do with me -- be part of the Training Ministry. It will be another first for me. But I know that indeed, I have been called. Through Daddylove, He is now showing me how I can serve Him more.

Come to think about it...my song choices on that day perfectly fit my prayer now... Be it unto me, according to Your word, O God. I shall trade my sorrows, my pains, my fears so that I can joyfully profess that You are good, all the time!

Wish List

What is my Christmas Wish List? I haven't really made one since I became a grown-up (was that only last year??? Hehehe). When we got married, hubby and I usually pegged an amount as basis for our purchase. But no list to help us find the "perfect" gift. Nevertheless, I got something that I wanted...be it a dress, wallet, scented lotion, etc.

So how about this year? What do I want to receive? Hmm...let me think about it first. Have you thought of yours?

A NEW LOOK

I got a new look!!! For my blog, that is. :)

It was really helpful that in browsing through different blogs, I found one that gave tips for new bloggers. I am so "untechy" which means the blog was really a huge help! Aside from learning how to make three columns in my layout, I was able to get a new background. Yipee!!!

If any of you need the same help as I do, you can check out my blog list tab. Enjoy blogging!

SIMOY PASKO NA

40 more days and it will be Christmas again. Simoy Pasko na nga eh! And like past Christmases, festive decors and lights adorn streets, malls, and houses in our neighborhood. But unlike past Christmases, times are tougher now. What with the global crisis, fertilizer fund scam and all.

Thus, I decided to recycle Mimi and Nanay's old Christmas decors. Like I put sequins on the gold Christmas balls, used old Christmas tree branches to make a garland, and added more glitter to the old trimmings. And everything turned out quite great for a creatively challenged person like me. Haha!

I still hope to get a decent picture of the garland that I made. And by December, I plan to put up more garlands at the terrace. I just don't want to put them too early just to collect dust. Also, there's this simple lantern made of capiz that I want to buy. I just get the feeling that Filipino Christmas isn't complete without one. Hehehe. Well, purchasing that can wait if I don't find one within my budget.

I Waited... But Not In Vain

For someone who is used to working since graduation, I found it difficult to be without work for six months after passing the board exams. In my previous post regarding that, I was exploding with enthusiasm in this new chapter in my life. I was armed with hope that I will land a job in one of the hospitals that I wanted to work in.
I passed the necessary requirements, went to exams and interviews. October flew by. Followed by November, and December, and January, and February, and March... I waited for the most anticipated phone call...But none came...
In the beginning, I was still enjoying my time as a full-time housewife. But when months kept on flying by... and I have read most of my husband's books... also learned how to cook... Paranoia and doubt crept in once in a while. Was I overage already? Is being a medical technologist not in God's will for my life? But how come He guided me to get passing marks? Because of these, there were days that I got sungit and easily irritated.
In February, my husband told me to start applying for other jobs aside from that of a medical technologist. He has identified my unemployment (actually it's the feeling of being unproductive) as the source of my negative emotions. Now, I have more options in finding work. So I did apply keeping in mind the priority of my applications:
Option #1: hospital/laboratory work as med. tech.
Option #2: full-time freelance or home-based work (so that if I get in for an externship program, I can do both)
Option #3: part-time medical indexing (where I used to work)
But still, the you-are-hired phone call remained elusive.
Days before my birthday, I was telling God aloud (when I was alone in the room) "Work ang gift mo sa akin di ba?" Another version was "Please dear God, work na lang regalo mo sa akin." On the same days that I pleaded to Him, and since my birthday is fast approaching, I started to assess my life. And found out quite a lot of enlightening revelations.

FRUITS OF THE LONG WAIT
For the past months, yes, I waited. Patiently and otherwise... but He didn't make me wait in vain. Because as I was waiting for the fulfillment of one of my heart's desires, without realizing it, He was teaching me far more important things.
I learned that sometimes, I was looking for a life-changing event to realize that I have been infinitely blessed. Since I was focusing my attention on finding a job, I sometimes forgot to realize that my waking up that morning was already a miracle. The fact that I am still spending precious moments with my husband and loved ones is an immeasurable gift. He has blessed me because I am now already 31 years old - alive and kicking!
I also realized that more than boredom, the feeling of being unproductive was causing my negative emotions. I felt unproductive because I thought that being productive means getting a paycheck each month. I failed to see that beyond the paycheck, I was more than productive when I brought a smile to my husband's face with something that I did; when I was able to assist him with his needs; when I was able to do little things for my family. Whining because of my predicament meant that I forgot who my first priority is. And that is my husband! Later, God opened my eyes to the fact that I have been more than productive by serving His will -- which is to be a wife after His own heart.
Another precious moment was when I came to realize that acts of service is a strong love language for my husband. I may have thought that cooking for him, keeping the room clean, etc. were menial tasks. I neglected the fact that he was sweeter whenever I did something for him. He kisses and hugs me more whenever he liked what I cooked. Thank God I was able to realize this!

BLESSED TO THE nth POWER
Aside from the blessings that I received while waiting... I am yet to be blessed even more. Indeed, He is a very generous God!
On my birthday, I received an unexpected phone call. I was to go to a hospital for an exam and interview. At the back of my mind, I was confident ("Sabi ko na nga ba Lord eh, work ang gift mo sa akin.") and yet doubtful ("Ito na nga ba yung gift mo Lord?"). So the following morning, I went in for the exam and interview. Goodness, there were lots of applicants! Apparently, a training program will be opened for aspiring medical technologists. Before noon, I was done with the exams and was told to come back by 1:30 for the initial interview. The interview didn't materialize until around 3... Thank God for my lessons in waiting! So patiently, I waited. After the interview, five of us went to the laboratory department head for the final interview. Wow, I didn't think that the process would be this quick! Around 5:30 in the afternoon, I received the results... I got in! Whew! Thank you Lord! That afternoon, I got my confirmation... "Work nga ang regalo mo sa akin, Lord. Thank you so much."
I spent the next two days in the hospital for the medical exam, submission of requirements, and orientation. For three days, I was there the whole day... patiently waiting in line. By Friday, God has granted the fulfillment of my option #1!
On my way home on Friday, I received a text message which I have been waiting for the past months. A good friend and previous officemate of mine will now be my part-time boss. Option #3 granted!
And the other day, when I checked my emails, I am ready to start the trial period for a home-based editing job. Option #2 granted!

I have been blessed to the nth power! And now, it will be up to my God-given free will to choose which path I would take. Thank you Lord for making me wait for the past months! Indeed, You have helped me prepare for all the blessings that You are to shower upon me. I am now ready to choose, knowing that whatever choice I make, You will bless me even more. And with my choice, I must be sure never to forget that Your will for me, first and foremost, is to become a wife after Your own heart.
I waited, but not in vain... Because with the long wait, You have blessed me immeasurably. The wait was worthwhile and the learnings are priceless. Thank You so much!

Thanks also to the people who prayed for me; Daddylove for always trying to understand and be patient; Salas, Saludares, Silo, Rala, LOJ, and JOLOGS families for the support and prayers. Love you all!

Parental Control

I stumbled upon an interesting show at ETC -- Parental Control. It caught my attention. The show gives parents a chance to choose two men whom they would want to go out with their daughter (am yet to see a show featuring a son). I believe this features parents who are unhappy with their daughter's choice (meaning current boyfriend). Thus, they get to choose their preferred men and the chosen ones get to date their daughter for a day. In the episode that I got to watch, their daughter ditched her current boyfriend. Much to her parents relief and happiness!

And this got me to think about Mimi. For so many times, we were at opposite ends when it came to my choice of a boyfriend. This went on for a very long time. And the hardheaded me always went on with the relationship. Very much to her disappointment...(Bad ko ba??)
And then, there was a time (actually I believe there were 2 of them) when Dad had to "remind" me of Mimi's feelings. Both via emails...In one, he told me to stop seeing the guy because it saddens Mimi that I am still going out with him. Another was when he told me to take the time in getting to know the person I was with before deciding to settle down. Both relationships ended...much to my parents' relief! But they didn't end right after I heard/read their reminders...The stubborn me wanted to see for myself if they were right. (Bad nga 'ata ako.)
I bet had there been a show entitled "Parental Control," they would have jumped at the opportunity to show me what the world has to offer. Those times, since I thought I was in love with the right man I felt controlled by Mimi and Dad. I sometimes thought "How dare them impose on me? They don't know my boyfriend as much as I do. They should give us a chance!" As much as I wanted to respect their opinions and feelings I stayed on with the relationship that they didn't approve of. (Tigas ng ulo ko noh?)

And then, another parent of mine (and yours, too) entered the picture. Well, He's always in our lives... every minute... every second... Using Mimi and Dad to keep on reminding me every chance they got, He also gave me the time to find out for myself. I guess every person has felt how it's like to be in a budding relationship... you get too focused on the in-love feeling that you forget the voice of wisdom and reason. But since my second parent gave me free will, as the relationships went on, I realized that as much as I feel in-love with the person, there are just a lot of things that we don't agree on. And He kept on showing me those instances... To make me realize my negotiables and non-negotiables (as Bro. Bo Sanchez would put it).

I may have put Mimi and Dad under too much stress in worrying that I might end up with the wrong man. But I guess they are happy now...Knowing that although I acted deaf during the times that they kept on reminding me, their reminders didn't actually fall on deaf ears... Somewhere, somehow, no matter how hardheaded or stubborn I was, their reminders were firmly planted in my heart and in my mind...And with their fervent prayers, I was able to find the man that I was really looking for. Because all along, getting their approval was a must for me.

Thanks, Mimi and Dad! And thanks to you, Lord!

The Story of Us

Last October 4, we watched the movie The Story of Us to begin the teaching series for the LOJ-Couples Ministry (I am inviting all newlyweds and engaged couples to attend. Please text me at 09272816620 for details.).

I remember watching the same film years back. Although I found the movie enlightening and entertaining, I didn't appreciate it as much as I do now that I am married myself.

The Story of Us is about a married couple who have grown apart (as evidenced by the silences they shared as conversations because they would rather be silent than arguing) and is just waiting for the right time to break the news to their kids. In their struggle to find the answers to the why's and how's, both characters are often lost in thought and reminiscing -- to the 1st day they met at work, their children's birth, raising the kids, etc.

Being married for nine months now (how fast time really flies!), I found myself nodding in agreement to most of the scenes in the movie. But two scenes stand out in my memory:

Scene 1: Husband and wife in the bedroom, talking. With their respective (imaginary) parents on each side.

Scene 2: The kids are back from camp and it's time to tell them of the big change. And the wife tells the husband: "That's not why I'm saying Chow Funs. I'm saying Chow Funs because we're an us. There's a history here, and histories don't happen overnight. In Mesopotamia or Ancient Troy there are cities built on top of other cities, but I don't want another city, I like this city. I know what kind of mood you're in when you wake up, which eyebrow is higher, and you know I'm a little quiet in the morning and compensate accordingly. That's a dance you perfect over time. And it's hard, it's much harder than I thought it would be, but there's more good than bad and you don't just give up! And it's not for the sake of the children, but God they're great kids aren't they? And we made them, I mean think about that! It's like there were no people there, and then there were people and they grew, and an an an...I won't be able to say to some stranger Josh has your hands or remember how Erin threw up at the Lincoln Memorial. I'll try to relax, let's face it, anybody is going to have traits that get on your nerves, I mean, why shouldn't it be your annoying traits, and I know I'm no day at the beach, but I do have a good sense of direction so I can at least find the beach, which isn't a weakness of yours, it's a strength of mine. And God you're a good friend and good friends are hard to find. Charlotte said that in Charlotte's Web and I love how you read that to Erin and you take on the voice of Wilber the Pig with such dedication even when you're bone tired. That speaks volumes about character! And ultimately, isn't that what it comes down too? What a person is made of? That girl in the pin helmet is still here 'bee boo bee boo' I didn't even know she existed until you. And I'm afraid if you leave I may never see her again, even though I said at times you beat her out of me, isn't that the paradox? Haven't we hit the essential paradox? Give and take, push and pull, yin and yang. The best of times, the worst of times!... I think Dickens said it best, 'He could eat no fat, his wife could eat no lean', but doesn't really doesn't really apply here does it? What I'm trying to say is, I'm saying Chow Funs because, I love you.

I have been married to my best friend for nine months already. We have a 12-year history of being best of friends. But still, more revelations unfold as we spend our lives together. The revelations result from the fact that Daddy and I are different (we were raised by different parents; we have different likes and dislikes) -- which is the message in scene 1.

For instance, when Daddy and I don't agree on something, I always end up retreating to my own quiet place and Daddy is the type who would prefer discussing it. Thankfully, having known each other for the past 12 years has enabled us to be sensitive, understanding and patient of each other. And our various personal experiences have made us mature enough to know that our relationship, just like any other relationship, entails work for it to succeed.

Marriage is a journey we vowed to take through thick and thin, in sickness and in health until death do us part. We had a history...and as each day unfolds, we are adding up more to that history. As we try to perfect our own dance, we simply hold onto our love and faith...believing in the knowledge that happily ever after doesn't begin fairytales, does it? On the contrary, happily ever after is the result of love, commitment and faith conquering the challenges.

May all married couples find their own happily ever after.

The Past Three Months: My Journey

After coming home from Singapore, Daddy and I have decided that I should take the local boards for the fulfillment of our goals. I dreaded the thought of going back to school and reading loads of materials. Aside from that, my memory isn't in tip-top form anymore, or so I thought.
Actually, I almost chickened out. Thinking what if we decide to stay in the Philippines after all, what's the need for taking the local boards? And Daddy was telling me that if I really didn't want hospital work, no need to do it. So why take the boards if I won't be working in the hospital, right? BUT I was almost through with the review classes. We have paid the dues, bought the materials, I have spent uncountable hours pouring over pages and pages of Henry and review materials. So I thought, dear God, as always, I need your help.

Days before the exam was our mock boards. And my grades were miserable. I was all tense during the mock boards... To think that that wasn't the real thing yet! Thus, 2-3 days before the exam, I was still reviewing...Plus my self-esteem has gone way down. I kept on thinking, am not good at this, why do it? I was good at something else before (my job) and yet I let it go. Imagine, I was putting myself down!

One of my down afternoons, as I kept on memorizing must-know normal values and disease concepts (but still kept on forgetting some of them! Arghh!), I cried my heart out to Him. I kept on asking myself too many why's like: Why am I taking the boards when I am having a hard time re-learning hematology, blood banking, serology, etc.? Why am I here at home when I could be out there in the "busy" world making a living? Why did I ever think that I could actually do it in 2-3 months' time?

As tears kept rolling down my face, I decided to calm my sad heart and restless mind by reading Streams in the Desert. And I got my answer...

"MUST LIFE BE CONSIDERED A FAILURE FOR SOMEONE COMPELLED TO STAND STILL, FORCED INTO INACTION AND REQUIRED TO WATCH THE GREAT ROARING TIDES OF LIFE FROM SHORE? NO --- VICTORY IS THEN TO BE WON BY STANDING STILL AND QUIETLY WAITING. YET THIS IS A THOUSAND TIMES HARDER TO DO THAN IN THE PAST, WHEN YOU RUSHED HEADLONG INTO THE BUSYNESS OF LIFE. IT REQUIRES MUCH MORE COURAGE TO STAND AND WAIT AND STILL NOT LOSE HEART OR HOPE, TO SUBMIT TO THE WILL OF GOD, TO GIVE UP OPPORTUNITIES FOR WORK AND LEAVE HONORS TO OTHERS, AND TO BE QUIET, CONFIDENT AND REJOICING WHILE THE BUSY MULTITUDE GOES HAPPILY ALONG THEIR WAY."

After that, I felt better. Well, I still didn't know if I would pass or fail...But I felt that eventhough I am no longer in the office for 12 hours a day, moving out of my comfort zone is another challenge. I could get rewarded (by passing) or not (by failing). But I have stilled my heart enough to know that He has plans for me that I am yet to uncover. And if I get the reward that I wanted, better for me. If not, at least I tried...

On the day of the exams, well, I know that even days before the exam, my prayer warriors have been doing their best to help me. And from the bottom of my heart, thanks so much!!! You just don't know how much it means to me because it is hard to put into words...But I will be forever grateful. Because of your prayers, I wasn't so tense anymore on the day of the exam. Even Daddy was amazed at how relaxed I was after the exams.

It's been 4 days since the exam...and as my heart and mind were starting to get restless again, I got the very important text message from Mira (thanks so much dear!) and phone call from Daddy. I did it, friends and family! I am now a licensed Medical Technologist! Thanks so much for all the prayers and support. And most of all, thank God for his unending goodness!

Hospitals, here I come! :)

Floods...past, present, and future

Today, my back aches... my arms ache a bit... even my buns ache!

Yesterday, as the rains kept on pouring. And Nanay and I kept on silently praying for the rain to stop...the inevitable happened (again). The flood came. Well, I won't be talking about how we tried to get all the water out of the house and the terrace. Just a while ago, before I was about to start reading I started reminiscing of yesterday's events -- How Nanay and I swapped stories about floods, etc. And speaking of floods, my memories came back to more than 20 years ago.

The Past
Memories of floods took me to San Fernando, Pampanga... where I was born and where we lived until I was around Grade 2. The place easily flooded also. And during the flood, just like any youngster, we tried to catch fish or wade in the water. And when the floods get too high, Daddy would put us in a floater with a wood under it para naman nakaupo kami. And we will "tour" the front of our house. We had lots of fun!

It also brought me back to Los Baños when we lived in a house with a really huge backyard. After any storm, my siblings and I would start helping Mommy clean the yard. We had our designated areas then. And of course, while cleaning we would also fool around. That cleaning the yard would take us the entire day! :)

And I started missing my family. Most of my siblings are married now, except for our dear bunso. And I know how lonely it might be at the house. I only hope that someday soon, we could all get together and have fun... Just like when we were still young that we were each other's playmates. And Mimi would end up complaining of our noise, hehehe. How time flies!!!

The Present
The flood left a messy trail of trash and mud in the streets... And it got me thinking again... How irresponsible some people get that they take the environment for granted. If only all of us would be educated on the wrong things that we do to the environment.

The Future
Daddylove and I watched the documentary "The Inconvenient Truth" and got touched by it. Please do watch it also. And let's always put the message to heart. We need to make lifestyle changes in order to save the environment. It's not always easy to undergo change. But if the future of our families and Mother Earth is in our hands... What are we waiting for?
Do check out www.climatecrisis.com for more info.