Last night was one of our twice-a-month Chapter meetings (for the Light of Jesus Couple's Ministry) at St. Francis Church. As always, I feel blessed just by being there. And like most of the Kerygma feasts that I have attended, I was teary-eyed. Well, teary-eyed is an understatement...Coz I was crying talaga. And to people close to me, they know that once I start crying, it's so hard to stop. Well, I have to blame the worship leader, my dearest husband, for the tears. Not because I was miserable or angry...the tears, I must say, were borne out of admiration and surprise.My husband was an active member of the Light of Jesus community (http://www.lightofjesus.net/), Joshua chapter which is for single men. And after we got married, it was no question that we will be joining the Couple's ministry. So, while we were still in Singapore, our dear friend Chie told us that they have enlisted our names for the ministry. It was one of the things we looked forward to upon coming home.
Last night, he was assigned to lead the worship and to my surprise, he used our Singapore trip as an example. As closing, he said that after that part of our married life, he knows that whatever struggles come our way as a couple, I will be there with him all the way. He even said that I was the face of Jesus during the times that he was disheartened. And believe me, there were really lots of those times in Singapore. And the memories, his affirmation really made me cry a lot.
I didn't have the chance to state what I was feeling that time. So, I would like to take this opportunity to say my piece as well...
I thank God because what Daddy and I have is a case of mutual admiration. If he admires me, I admire him just the same. If he believes that I was the face of Jesus during those trying times, well, I too felt the same way. If he knows that at the end of our days, I will still be there for him. I also firmly believe that he's there for me constantly.
Of course we were both disheartened when our hearts' desires were not fulfilled. The good thing though is that we didn't get disheartened at the same time. I guess this is one of the rewards of having a lasting friendship before we became romantically involved. We have gotten to know each other so well that sometimes, we don't need words to know what each other is feeling. And good thing that whenever I felt his disappointment, I knew I had to be the strong one. And vice-versa...Of course I couldn't be strong all the time...And Daddy is my strength.
We've weathered our first storm together..and I am so happy to say that through the tough times, we drew strength from each other...from our love and friendship...from our faith...our family and friends. And with this formula, I don't think one of us will be letting go.
